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2002-10-22 ~ 9:28 p.m.
Listening to: Listening to: Bring back--that LOVIN FEELIN CAUSE ITS GONE...gone...gone! Whoa whoa whoa. I don't have any homework. None. I should read the Scarlet Pimpernel and think of ideas for my creative English project and also collect newspaper articles for Health and other things that I could get done if I were a responsible, hardworking student. But since I am not, I'm writing an entry and listening to music and talking to Lindsay. I'm not really sure what I want to talk about. Lindsay's all excited about Christmas. I am quite thrilled as well but I am not really in a "let me buy people things" mood. I am kind of in a "what can I ask for?" mood. I know, I'm selfish like that. But I don't ever have any good gift ideas and I feel bad about leaving people out so I just don't give out presents. I'm thinking candy canes, walahoo. Back to this being a non-responsible student thing, let's go over what I have to do in the next week and a half. Thursday: Bio specimens due and a Geometry test. Friday: Nothing really but yeah. Saturday: Stupid costume party in which I have to perform yecch. Sunday: Recital noooooooooooooooo. Monday: Drivers Ed test Part 1. Tuesday: somethin or other.... Wednesday: Health test part 2. Thursday: Creative English project due AND History test. Friday: Health articles due. And you know what? I think I am forgetting about some stuff that may be due like, TOMORROW or something. Arraggaha. I hope I will get through this all. I don't really have time for anything but I've managed to pull through before. Think positive, right? :) GOD I JUST WANT TO SKIP OVER THESE NEXT 10 DAYS. On a lighter note, dance was fun! I can do an axel turn--neh neh neh neh neh neh. Don't worry, I didn't know what it was until I saw it either. I got googled for "I feel like I'm taking crazy pills." That bothers me. A lot. I should really start holding back a little more in these entries. My mom was like "You know, a diary is supposed to be personal. Public diaries defeat that purpose." I was like well... But seriously, why do I do this? First off, it helps my writing. When I write this often during the week it keeps me on my toes. When I was younger I used to start a story every night. I never finished them, but that's not the point. The point was, my brain was always working. I was always thinking about a new premise or a new catch phrase or a new type of character. As I got older I started to lose that sense of creativity because I was getting weighed down by schoolwork. I started writing less and less for leisure and more for "GOTTA PROVE THIS THESIS DO ITTTTT!" So that's part of the reason I feel so obligated to write in here--to get practice and to develop my "writing voice." But also I write in here because I have way too many emotions to keep inside me--anyone who's read any of my emotional entries knows that. I'm Little Miss Bipolar. But that's why it's good I have something to take it out on. But I could just write all my emotions out on a piece of paper, couldn't I? Nope. You see, I'm a super-egomaniac. I would love to be on any one of those reality shows just so people could see me and hear what I have to say and maybe relate to me. This diary is a combination of my desire to write, my need to vent, and my voyeuristic tendencies. So no, Mother, a normal paper diary would NOT suffice. This entry is too long and I haven't really even said anything of value. I should really be more worried about other more important things but I don't want to trouble myself. Goodnight Diaryland!
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