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2004-01-01 ~ 6:42 p.m.
Listening to: "Clocks," Coldplay. I can't stop listening to them. I am not remotely excited about the new year. I think that deep down I believe that this is a silly holiday, but I don't know what my reasons are. Probably because of the way people go about celebrating it... I think the ball-dropping ceremony is ridiculous and I laugh at it every time. Ew I sound so jaded and like, anti-society. But I think it's just today that is making me upset. I'm in a sucky mood today for no reason. I get like this a lot and I really just want it to stop. I hate being a stupid moody person but sometimes the bad mood just like consumes me and I can't get over myself. Usually when that happens I just feel like sleeping all the time. Which is bad for me because I end up sleeping instead of like, doing work or being with my friends or family or like... eating. Not good. And I thought I was over it kind of, especially after Christmas and all that, but today it hit me again, hard, and I just want it to go away. I hope I am not like bipolar or something... Miss Bing says it can happen to anyone and that it can be triggered at any time in your life. I think it's a kind of out-there diagnosis but I am worried enough about myself to wonder if it could be something besides general teenage angst. Bllleeehh. My New Years Eve was actually really nice, now that I think about it. We had a MILKS sleepover and watched movies and played Inklink and stuff. Yeah, I like to think that the motto of Kid Slim and all resultant acronyms is: It doesn't matter what you do as long as you are in good company. I do believe that today all we did was watch I Love the 80's. And I still considered it a good time. Well, at least until the moment I realized that all we had done all day was watch I Love the 80's. Then I felt majorly disappointed. But then I remembered the aforementioned motto. And all was well. Gee I'm hungry. I think I'm going to get some food. Sounds like a plan. I just read the entry back. There is so much substance in these entries compared to my Xanga entries. Ah, it's good to be back. Heh. Goodnight, D-land.
Falling Upward ~ Falling Downward
Miss Anything? i'm portable - 2005-02-16 busy making big mistakes - 2004-06-12 i'm sorry I know that's a strange way to tell you - 2004-03-21 hello darkness - 2004-03-17 another night slips away - 2004-03-15
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